Poem

March 15, 2016

Trance

My life the past 6 months has had a dizzying number of ups and downs. I’m not too fond of rollercoasters in general so it has definitely been quite the journey navigating through my life hoping that I’m stepping in the right direction. I’ve had the most amazing things happen, but I’ve also been struggling with mono, chronic bronchitis, ear infections, and sinus infections for the last 4 months, almost 5 months straight.

It has also been a struggle to find the right medical treatments that will help my body heal- hopefully I am on the right path now, but only time will tell. Something super crazy is that the medication I am currently on makes me completely wacky. I can’t function as quickly or as efficiently as I am normally able to, I always feel like my brain is in a fog, and today it really took a toll on my emotions. I’m a gemini and I hate not being able to go-go-go and I hate not being in complete control of myself. However, This whole experience has truly helped me to realize that I may be unstoppable, but I am not invincible, and I really need to slow down sometimes to take care of myself.

Recounting the multiple times the last few months where I have had to power through something despite feeling much less than optimum, I wrote a poem this morning describing what was going through my head and how exactly I felt during these not-so-glamorous moments.d3e16edf834e12cda1181a7663cacb5e

Trance

I can’t feel my feet, my legs are going numb
My hands are shaking, eyes are twitching, what have I become
My skin is melting off, dripping on the floor
Exposed deep underneath my bones I’m longing to explore

My breath is shallowing, my sight blurring too
Receding back behind my eyes, my veins still pumping through
My mind is in a trance, all I can do is dance
Unaware, my body moves, the shapes are vaguely cast

Stomach acid gurgling uneasy feelings creep
I’m sick of backseat driving, but the clutch I cannot reach
My skin so cold and pale, my forehead beats with sweat
I feel the heat leaving my body, fainting to forget

The air is whirring all around so hot so cold, can’t focus now
My mind trails off leaving no trace, can’t concentrate, can’t lose this race
I’m pushing forward, moving on, can’t feel my body, show must go on
No one can tell whats kept inside, my body’s strong, won’t break my stridemaxresdefault

Sick to my stomach, tears in my eyes
Ignore decay, pass by the lies
No energy no rest no time
Show must go on, won’t break my stride

Show must go on, won’t break my stride
Show must go on, won’t break my stride

March 15, 2016 Poem, Songs 0

July 20, 2015

If Only They Knew

By Brielle

I’m a traveller of dimensions, ruler of the fog
Succumb to your intentions, you mystify the wrong
I search for the inception of actions ruled by thought
Decipher consequences of minds that time has not

The lampshade dims the lightbulb’s glare
The gates encase the child’s share
Ahold the torch, you pass it not
The door’s the threshold of logic’s wrought

This power’s to be seen only by a few
Possessed by the masses if only they knew
This power’s to be seen only by a few
Possessed by the masses if only they knew

The glass blurs your reflection, distorts what you have known
Newly found perceptions mirrors cannot show
My mask is that of chaos trimmed with lace and stone
There’s freedom without order, ataxia with control

Heavy-handed bodies aim
Fickle memories never gain
Blind to truths ignored with haste
Coerced by creeds already lain

If only they knew, if only they knew

July 20, 2015 Poem 0